Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Wonder Women
My favorite post of the week is Providentia's concise review of the strange life and career of William Moulton Marston: psychologist, inventor of the polygraph, creator of Wonder Woman (in 1941), and, it must be said, distinctly unconventional family man. Thank you, Marston, but not for the polygraph, which hasn't stood up very well scientifically.
And today I can't resist this towering Emily Dickinson lyric, in a boreal and reverent mood:
My period had come for Prayer --
No other Art -- would do --
My Tactics missed a rudiment --
Creator -- Was it you?
God grows above -- so those who pray
Horizons -- must ascend --
And so I stepped upon the North
To see this Curious Friend --
His House was not -- no sign had He --
By Chimney -- nor by Door
Could I infer his Residence --
Vast Prairies of Air
Unbroken by a Settler --
Were all that I could see --
Infinitude -- Had'st Thou no Face
That I might look on Thee?
The Silence condescended --
Creation stopped -- for Me --
But awed beyond my errand --
I worshipped -- did not "pray" --
The rest is silence...until the next post.
Happy Holidays.
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
That is the Question

Monday, December 22, 2008
'Tis the Season

Sunday, December 21, 2008
(Not) Just Another Day at the Office (continued)
That often madness hits on, which reason and sanity
Could not so prosperously be delivered of.
Polonius
A young fellow comes in, for a routine check-in after hospital discharge. He has been diagnosed with schizophrenia, although he disputes that (surprise). But he protests that what he really needs is not "pills," but rather housing and a job. "All you all ever talk about is pills...always more pills...what am I supposed to leave my kids, a bunch of pills?"
Good question. Fortunately his community support worker is sitting in with us; hopefully she has all kinds of great ideas for him. His last job was $7 an hour at Biscuitville, and with gas prices being what they were then, what was the point, really? The Obama campaign/transition team keeps sending me emails--what are they going to do for him?
Another guy, middle-aged this time. It sounds like he was quite successful, with a high-paying sales job and a family until he developed a severe psychotic disorder several years ago. Since then it has been steeply downhill, with several hospitalizations, disability, and divorce.
I had first met him a few weeks ago, when his family brought him in in a floridly psychotic state. At that time he was disheveled, paranoid, and exhibited thought-blocking. This time it is after his discharge and I barely recognize him. To be sure, his appearance is subtly off: a few hairs out of place, and a jacket that is a bit too long and too bright. But he is making an effort, and arrives early for his appointment.
He has been put on prodigious amounts of haloperidol, both oral and by long-acting injection, but he tolerates it without complaint. His chief concern seems to be a compound of loneliness and futility. He is heartbroken over not having seen his kids for months, and his ex-wife seems to have been able to deny him access. He wants to look into working and being productive again, like he used to be. Yet he sheepishly allows glimpses of persisting delusional systems. I don't think he could or should hold a regular job at this point. He lives alone, but does attend a church, and has some support from his family of origin. He has lost almost everything.
Why?
Friday, December 19, 2008
Married With Children
We had a "computer guy" come over and "clean up" our computer because it appeared to have some viruses. The rather detached and deadpan fellow arrived and sat down in front of the device. Not long after he asked, "Do you have any alcohol?"
This seemed a little bit unusual, so my wife asked, half-jokingly, "Do you need a drink?" Maybe our computer viruses were more serious than we thought, or maybe this was a different kind of "computer guy" than we were used to.
"Rubbing alcohol," he corrected. It was duly obtained, and he went to work with it, removing, of course, some old peanut butter and assorted bits of "sticky stuff" adorning the mouse and keyboard (hadn't even noticed). So we got computer maintenance and detailing as well. He charged extra to detail the children though, so that will have to wait. (We're not dirty people, really, I think he must have been on the fastidious side--not that there's anything wrong with that).
Note to self: no more late-night PB & J while blogging.
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Blog in a Bottle
Perhaps the first question the blogger has to ask is: Am I writing for myself or for others? However much one might claim the former ("I don't really care if anyone reads it"), we know it's bogus. If it were for oneself it would be in a journal stashed in the closet and not on the Internet. Even the radically reticent Emily Dickinson (at least where actual publication was concerned), did not after all burn her poems, and presumably died hoping against hope that someone would discover them--and her.
Of course, writing within view of others, so to speak, is not at all the same as writing for others. Most bloggers, I think, have the attitude of "I'm pretty much writing for myself over here, but if you want to come look no one's going to stop you."
Even in relatively formal blogs comprising amateur reportage, commentary, or professional insights there is embodied an aspiration to be found of interest--not to six billion obviously, and indeed six might suffice. Don't all human beings secretly fantasize that their deepest speculations might be widely found to be somehow remarkable? Don't we all wish at some level to be the writer, thinker, or even celebrity whose hidden journals, once found, are a source of endless intrigue? Well, maybe it's just my own narcissism ("Physician, heal thyself").
I am a devotee of the wide angle lens, of the aerial shot showing the interconnectedness of things, and of the ephemeral that is all the more valued for being so. It is in my nature to take things in in a glance as it were and move on. I don't say it's the best, indeed it likely is not, but it's the way I think and see.
Blogging can obviously be time-consuming. A major decision is whether to write only when one really feels some compelling pressure to express something (um, in a literary way I mean), or whether one ought to get something down every day even if it means a pedestrian post or two (or more). Some days one looks at the screen and thinks, "I got nothin' here."
So as a metaphor I'm sure others have probably used countless times already, a blog seems to me the cyber version of the message in the a bottle, sent out in a second rather than over a few years, but still providing one with the fantasy of achieving an unexpected connection. Human beings have a way of needing to project themselves across space and time.
So if anyone has any comments about what is useful or interesting in this or any blog I'd be happy to see them. Remarks such as "More interesting posts please" or "Okay, you can stop now," while understandable, might be best directed to my email. If you made it this far--thanks for reading!
Who's Afraid of the DSM?

An unhappy people in a happy world --
Read, rabbi, the phases of this difference
An unhappy people in an unhappy world
Here are too many mirrors for misery
A happy people in an unhappy world --
It cannot be. There's nothing there to roll
On the expressive tongue, the finding fang.
A happy people in a happy world --
Buffo! A ball, an opera, a bar.
Wallace Stevens
I'm sure we'll be hearing a lot about psychiatry's Diagnostic and Statistical Manual in coming years, with the fifth edition due out around 2011. For some of us, diagnostic issues, like politics did around 2006, is about to get a lot more interesting. The New York Times has an article today on how things are coming along (without a single bone of contention, rest assured).
There are some misunderstandings about the infamous tome. As is widely noted, the number of official "mental disorders" has increased significantly with every edition of the book, to nearly 300 today. But many of these are minute variations of the same basic problems. For instance, Alcohol Abuse is a distinct diagnosis from Alcohol Dependence, but both are just degrees of severity of the same addiction.